Heαrts wιℓℓ never be prαcticαℓ, unℓess they αre mαde unbreαkαbℓe♥.

My boyfriend neglects me. I'm sad.

So, what's today ?
>.>
Uh, hmm. Checking my computer clock . : )
It's the 28th! Woot, go me for figuring that out .
I haven't written in like, eight days.
A week and one day . : (
Um, I'd be lying if I said a lot has happened.
Well, I guess..
Enough to fill this blog atleast.
Enough to make it look long. lol .
Go me . ^_^

Sometimes I wish I had never met you
because then I could go to bed at night
not knowing there was someone like
you was out there .

Oo
My mother came into my room, squinting..
Telling me " Strike one. "
Huh ???
My grounding thing.. For the chores.
Yeah, I was suppose to do them right away .
And I said I'd be good.
WHICH I HAVE.
I forgot to put away the dishes, =_= .
AND I'm doing laundry right now,
at 10:10pm.
The laundry is silent, like wtf .
It's not that loud .

She pisses me off SO much .
ARRGG I :MXFYIP MPS : (
And she wonders why I never want to talk to her
or stay home .
It's pathetic.

I hate them. I hate them both.

They can go fucking die in hole for all I care.

A heart breaking isn't as loud as a bomb exploding..
Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather
falling . And the most painful thing is,
no one can hear it; except you.

Gary came into my room in swimming shoes..
I forget what they're called..
And was angry and said to make juice.
I did.
I locked my door.
And am waiting for Matthew to come back from
the store and talk to me .

Every few nights or so, you pop

into my dreams, I just

can't get rid of you, like

you got rid of me .

Anyway , Not last night..
But the night before,
I slept at the school for a ThinkFast
Program.
It was actually fun, minus the fact
I twisted my ankle on the way there &
It swelled up so bad I could barely walk..
I did okay with the not eating for 24 hours
thing though. Which is good .
Um.. We had a little paper which had
each word written out a few times:
Juice (6x)
Tea (2x)
Broth (2x)
Crackers (2x)
Everytime we wanted one, We'd ask for it;
And they'd cross it off..

I wish I was a kid again,
because skinned knees
Are easier to fix than broken hearts.

I'm running out of things to say..
I don't really feel like writing anymore .
Oh, a few more things though :
-> Tina; You, really, need to learn how to make use
of quotes properly. lol : )
-> Mattchew got an interview. yay♥!
-> Litercy test April 2nd.
-> ... Dentist appointment April 1st.
-> I got new shoes & a new wallet which matches my purse.
-> I got more quotes. And the updated msn, Do not download it.
-> I'm still doing laundry.. Go me.
-> " Would you Rather" is a real fun game. play it.
-> I'm bored.
>: [ ; Byeee .

Random quotes. : )

The worst thing is holding onto someone
who doesn't want to be held onto.

It's true, we don't know
what we've got until it's gone,
but we don't know
what we've been missing until it
arrives.

What we have here is a dreamer.
Someone completely out of
touch with reality.
When she jumped,
She probably thought she could fly.

And maybe I wish you would
cry yourself to sleep, just once,
like I did for you;
so many times.

I do believe,
Somewhere in the abyss of endlessness,
I ripped up a heart and swallowed it whole.
Not out of love, or out of rage,
but out of curiousity alone.
The worst part is, it was my own.

Oh, btw.
My boyfriend doesn't neglect me . : D
Thought I'd mention it..
Because he was probably saying
" Wtf.. ? " Near the beginning.
I love you, Mattchew. : )

You are the answer to
every prayer I've offered.
You are a song, a dream, a whisper
& I don't know how I could live
without you for as long as I have.
I love you, more than you
can ever imagine.
I always have and always will♥ .

[ Notebook . ]

Once in αwhiℓe, right in the middℓe of an ordinαry ℓife; ℓove gives us α fαirytaℓe.

Cute moment . : )

Corey is down from Toronto;
Go him!
But he's been pissing me off 'cause he keeps using dee phone
and disconnecting Mattchew from dee internet.
so, I'm sad. *sob*
Wee, ^__^

Never date a woman whose father
calls her " princess, "
Chances are - She believes it♥ .

That quote I just put, yeah..
That's a lie .
I grew up with my mommy AND daddy
calling me princess.
I don't think I am , *grins*
BUT ... Few things you should know :
1 - I'm always right.
2 - I'm not bossy . I just know what you should be doing.
[ Note: I have a picture that says that . LMAO . ]
3 - Uh, There is no sense in arguing.. I always win. : )
4 - I love you, so please be goood . lol

Having sex is like playing bridge .
If you don't have a good partner,
you'd better have a good hand .

αlαlαα ♫
It's march break, btw .
You probably already know .
But I like pointing out the obviousss .
I was grounded... for 4 days of the beginning of it .
lame .
I'm cold, too . && I keep yawning .
Um, I got my webcam back too .
But soon, I'm going to push it onto Mattchew. Again . ;D

" Omg, you ARE a bitch. A real one at that. "
" I know.."
" Can you teach me ? : D "
" LMAO OMG, YES!"
" YES! FINALLY I'M GOING TO BE A REAL BITCH,
NOT A FAKE ONE! "
- Nicole & Jeannine .

Note: I'm the bitch in the quote.. xD
Apparently going to teach Nicole, lol .
I got lots more quotes from websites too .
So, I'm happy .
It's great,
I went through my pictures on the computer too .
So pretty .
Oh! Mattchew & I took pictures at the Kinsmen park .
So pretty.
The one at the top of this blog is one of them ,
I like it..
I like it a lot . ^_^
I have nothing really to talk about on here. >_>
Right now, atleast .

Marrying a man is like
buying something you've been
admiring for a long time in
a shop window.
You may love it when you get home,
but it doesn't always go
with everything else in the house .

I love Nicole right now .
She's amazing .
My potential best friend.
We never really hung out together.
Just.. considered each other friends
while I hugged her and stroked her head
because she's so short.. it's adorable. : D
She's my LoveDove . ^__^
Kyuu♥
I love her reactions, XP .

" Can girls RAPE boys ? "
" Yes, but the question is:
Would the boy really hate it ?
Seriously.
I don't think the guy would complain all that much ."
" LMAO, understandable. "
- Denson [ Dentsu ] & Jeannine .

I still gotz to do homework .
I'm sad. I have 2 more days. *sigh*
I keep holding it off...
I'll do the Religion and act assignments DEFINITELY tomorrow.
*puts headband on with " WORK HARD" written on it .]

I may not get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in
my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart I truly know,
you're the only one that I love,
& I won't let you go .

Quotes, yay quotes.
ahahhaa, Dentsu.
You're amazing for picking the most quoted quotes.. xD

And Mattchew is amazing..
Because, he just is.

And I randomly love Tina.
I don't know why yet.
When I know why, I'll tell her. xD

I'm too lazy to put a song lyrics, so..
Random big QUOTE. : D ::

All at once, you look across a
crowded room for no one in
particular, just looking.
Suddenly, you see him, but, oh,
how many times you have seen him before.
So why did your heart just skip a beat ?
Your eyes meet by mere coincidence, or is it ?
At that moment you both insantly know that
the relationship between the two of you,
will never be the same again.

I'll trade you a smile; for a kiss♥

Omg, I look like a whore. That's SO great . : D

I haven't written in like.. a week and ONE day .
Sorry ?
So, anyway .
I'm grounded . Again .
For what ? You may be asking;
Well, for giving attitude and not doing chores.
Ah, well .

It was horrible at first, but then TODAY ...
I went out for the first time since thursday [ Not including school ].
Ah, how great it felt . lol
I seen Mattchew today, too .
^_^ My mum talked to Corey well I spent a few minutes with Matt.
yay , : P
I'm all happy now .
Kinda cheesy, I know. Leave me alone. -.-

Dear Girl,
I just thought you should know,
I melted when I heard him
call you ' beautiful .'
Love always,
Your heart. x33

So, I forgot to mention..
I'll be off grounding soon .
As long as I do chores without them reminding me. >: [
blah .

yay ? :/

" Do you remember when you were a little
kid and you wanted a toy really bad when you went
to the store, but your
mum wouldn't let you get it , NO MATTER
how much you begged ? Well, that's
how I feel about you ." - Me reading a quote to Matthew
" You better not get taken back for a refund!" - Matthew

I'm not that sick anymore btw .
Like, I still have my stuffy nose and flem .
And a cough. xD
Not as bad as it was before, so that's good, right ? ^__^

They were right when they said Love
is the slowest form of suicide, because
his lips are laced with cyanide, & I'm
so addicted to his kiss♥ .

I still have homework to do, too .
Two Romeo & Juliet assignments that are overdo,
a concrete poem..
I thought I had History... a war letter to do ,
but if it's late.. then no point in it anymore .
The teacher that was marking them is gone . [Mr. James]
Because he was, like , one of them people that
teach to BECOME a teacher..
So, yeah, he's not a teacher yet .
He's cool .

The best kind of kiss is;;
the kind when you have to stop
because you can't help but smile ,

This post isn't going to be that long.. so, yeah .
As long as a few of them atleast. lmao .
I'm amused.

OH!
Okay, truthfully.. I know I've become anti-social .
I like it that way really,
but I'm SCARED!!!
This summer.. I know I'm going to socialise..
Because every summer I do .
Habit, I guess.
But last summer was cool . >.>
Anyway , I don't want to make friends.
But I also don't want people to feel bad..

Like last summer.. There was a few people who
wasn't with anyone and was alone,
yeah well.. since I'm SO great.. I made friends with them .
Go me . T__T
And, like, I dislike children [ I don't hate them anymore. :) ]
right ?
So.. when I was at the pool a lot.. some children were sad..
and I was nice to them.
And [ Reason why I don't really like children : ] they followed me
everywhere from then on.. everytime they saw me .
UGHH EJYTDFJKSRTDHN!!!
So frustrating .

I know I'm made of mistakes, disappointments,
& failures.
But, I promise you that, there is a part of me
that is actually worth keeping .

Socialising. ARG .
I don't like pretending to be nice .
And I don't like the people who think I'm cool
because I'm brutally honest .
Like, I know this chick [ Not going to say her name]
and I KNOW she thinks I'm cool..
Because I'm mature.. : /
And, when I speak I'm mean .
It's annoying.
You can tell she thinks it by the way she laughs
and how she looks at me .
I want to hit her . -___-
I know it's mean . But it pisses me off .
It really does . Gr ,
& then there are the people that are REALLY self-
centred.
Like, I know I am for a fact..
But atleast I admit it ... and Don't TRY to make the conversations
about me . : / *sigh*

The best kind of kiss is the unexpected;;
unplanned ones that come naturally, like in
the middle of a sentence .

Anyway , I'm done .
I'm hungry.. Food . : D


Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passin' up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
Just steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him right now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

Hello.
I still can't find my quote book.
grrr . : (
I'll hopefully find it soon,
If not... well, I'll have to make another one .
*sigh*
That's reaaaaal depressingg .

And I'll never understand why God allows certain people into our lives ...fully knowing that they don't stay.

I found a quote. : D
I give the credits to Shilohs blog for the upcoming blog quotes.
Until I find my quote book .
Hopefully that gives me goodluck
as to finding it . lmao . :)

Leaning now, into the breeze,
REMEMBERING SUNDAY , he falls to his knees.

I have a new fascination...
If you couldn't tell already. Dx
Boys like Girls.
Woooot , ♥
I love them .
All their songs.
I love bands when I love all their songs.
Makes sense. *nods in satisfaction.*
Yeah, makes sense.
hehee, ^__^
I'm happy right now.

Part of me wishes we were like goldfish.
They only have a 3 second memory.
That way, I would never remember who you were
or what you did to me.

Lalala,
I've been up since 7am this morning.
I know, right?
I went to bed at like, 12:30am
or so .

Some days i wonder why he saw me
when a thousand other girls saw him.

I keep msging Matthew but noooooo.
He's probly just sleeepin away . T_T

I'm HUNGRY, damnit .
I want FOOOOOD .
ARGGG E:YJIP$%M^Y: QW$%#&Y !!!!!!!
Hahahhaa, wanted to do that .

I want Shiloh to come online, too .
Annnd. oh, Jaret IS online.
I talked to him; but the conver died quickly. again.
i'm talking to Kate, I was talking to Cathie.
[ Mum's high school friend, ]

I'm bored, hungry, sad, happy, hungry, tired, fully awake.
I'm so hungry I feel like I'm going to puke .
You may be thinking right now,
" Stop complaining and get some flippin food, !!"
Or something along those lines.
I can't.
I'm at my grandpa's.
We barely come up here. I'd feel bad if I ate something without asking.
And it's kind of pointless to wake my mum up at this point. :/

WHY ISN'T MATTHEW AWAKE ? arg.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder.

I'm hearing things;
Reminds me of a song from the 80s.
" Who can it be now ? >.>
Who can it be nowwww ? <.< "
AHHHAHAHAA; who's that by, anyway ? : /
Hmmmm .


' נεαηηιηε ℓovεs мαtt; I'm in torontooo. : D says:
Who sings " Who can it be now ?"
Damian says:
da fuck if i know
' נεαηηιηε ℓovεs мαtt; I'm in torontooo. : D says:
You suppose to know...

That's mean. He suppose to know.
He knows lots of mooosic. *sigh*
Oh, Michaela is listening to Wham!
"Wake me up before you go-go"
.. Don't leave me hangin on like a yo-yo.
hahahaa,
I hope Tina sees this. :/

alalaalaa
mmmmmmmm...

[ Literally, like, 10 minutes later. ]


' נεαηηιηε ℓovεs мαtt; I'm in torontooo. : D says:
Who sings the song " Who can it be now ? "
EriQ says:
holy crap long time no see eh
EriQ says:
and idk
' נεαηηιηε ℓovεs мαtt; I'm in torontooo. : D says:
i knowwwwww . : D
EriQ says:
I've been into jungle and hard house =p
' נεαηηιηε ℓovεs мαtt; I'm in torontooo. : D says:
huh ? O__O

Apparently they are bands are something..
It's to do with Techno music. xD
That was SO random .
I didn't even ask . >.<
He's so amazing. : D
He just made my day! ... er-- Morning .

Everyone is waking up . : D
It's 10:05am .

It's amazing, really,
just how much pain the human heart can take.

Oh! I found out who sings the song "Who can it be now ?"
.. It's by Men at Work.
Cathie told me .
wooooooot .
That took, like, a half hour to figure out. GEEEZ .

Mattchew is still sleeeepin.
He's going to be so creeped out when he reads this.
I'm amused.

I love you all .
Im leaving.
Off the blog.
To continue randomly talking to people and listening to
Boys Like Girls. yayy , ♥

Bye-byeee ; :)

Boys Like Girls♥

Learning To Fall :

Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You're so content it hurts me
I don't know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie?
He doesn't catch you like I do
And you don't know why
You change your clothes and your hair
But I can't change your mind
Oh, I'm uninvited
So unrequited now

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Words screaming in my head
Why did you leave?
And I can't stop dreaming
Watching you and him
When it should have been
It should have been me

Today is the day
The worst day of my life

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
(Tell me that you know, it should have been me)
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me
Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me.

Lyrics to Hero / Heroine :

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smileIt's not complicated
I was so jaded.

I lost my quote book .

So, yeah.
My quote book is GONE .
Has vanished.
Grew legs and walked away.
Probably RAN away .
Did I treat it that badly ?
I feel bad for it now . *sigh*

>

Since I lost my quote book .
I can't put any quotes on here.
which is even more sad .
So I'm going to put these ugly stupid arrow things ( ">" )

>

so uglyyy.

>

*shudders*
anyway ,
I have to make poems for english,
one beingg :


She stands on stage, scared, queezy,
her palms sweaty.
The curtain opens and reveals the audience
watching.

The spotlight is on her.

What was she to do? Or say?She can't think,
the pressure weighs too much.
Should she give up?

The melody begins.

Without thinking, she sings.
The microphone - she holds high.
Her lips form an angels smile
as words pour out from inside.

The song ends.

She bows in satisfaction
as the people stand noisily and applaud.
She feels comfortable on stage;
it's the only place she can be herself.

"The crown is mine."

---
I don't know what to call it yet .
Hopefully I'll know by tomorrow.
Because It's due tomorrow .

OH, what abooouuutt.. ' The way I felt when I first saw you '?
Shiloh likes it..
I kind of do too .
Like, at the beginning she's nervous, scared and queezy (obviously)..
Then she doesn't know what she's doing.
When she sees something she recognises..
She can do it without thinking.
then.. At the end,
She's satisfied.
She can be herself .

I like it now.
Alrighhhhhhhht .
My second poem was more like a story.
Not even going to say it .

>

Anyway,
I know this blog was short.
But I have to go .
bye byeeee♥