I know how it feels to think of the right thing to say.. too late.

Happy Birthday to Denson,

who's birthday was yesturday . ;D

α mαn is only αs good αs whαt he loves ,

No matter what people say,

I'm going to marry that boy someday.

I'm not that girl.

I'm not the girl who gets attached.

I don't like feelings, they're messy.

And I don't like being hurt.

Why did I let him get to me,

When I know that everyone always leaves?

Run your finger tips around my waist

I will make your body my favourite place to

travel, baby I'll be spending the night.

Because I can barely breathe

with your weight on my chest,

and

I'm so fucking sick of being ashamed of my own flesh.

My future depends on many

thing, but mostly on you.

++Frank Tyger

So let it be just you and me tonight;

tangled up in each others arms,

with fireworks exploding in our hearts.

You can spend the night beside her.

And you know that she's half crazy,

but that's why you want to be there.

You're not worth

putting myself in these situations.

She calls out to the man on the street,

he can tell she's been crying.

She's got blisters on the soles of her feet,

she can't walk, but she's trying.

It's funny how I found him,

he was everything I wanted and

nothing I've been looking for.

I wish there was something I could say,

to erase each and every page you've been though,

even though it's not my place to save you.

Remember about the plans that we made?

About getting married and where we would stay.

Do you still hope that we end up that way?

Something's been causing this pain.

I know its not real, it just feels that way.

How did things dramatically change?

Wishg things would've just stayed the same.

Don't you dare wake me up.

I don't want to wake up without you next to me.

I'm leaving because you never asked me to stay.

++Dawsons Creek

I made you a promise.

I had no idea it would be so hard to keep,

but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try.

++Stephenie Meyer

Life's disappointments are harder to take when

you don't know any swear words.

I think it's okay that you're the only one that gets me,

& I love how I can't breathe quite right as you

slowly whisper in my ear,
"Beautiful, you owe me a dance tonight."

I love this one. >_<, So cute. ;D

There were some things I wanted to tell him.

But I knew they would hurt him.

So I buried them and let them hurt me.

++Jonathan Safron Foer

When someone asks, "are you okay,'

I always say, "What really is okay?'

Are you prepared to hear my answer?
Most people can't even answer the first question.

&& ' ℓιke the brιghтesт sтαr, you shιne тhrough,

I will be your accident if you will be my ambulance.
And I will be your screech and crash,
if you will be my crutch and cast.
And I will be your one more time
if you will be my one last chance.

Oh, fall for me.







Hello , I know it's been awhile. I had no intention of quitting.. for the record - I thought I'd let you know. Um, I seen the movie Julie & Julia today and it kind of made me say " Hey, I forgot.. I should keep going. The thing is, my computer is extremely slow, it takes me an hour or so just to finishONE post. Yeah, horrible, I know.

So, if you haven't noticed, my formatting is different. I thought about that, too (OMG, I THINK). The way I did it before was quick and to the point annnnnnd seems very... unprofessional..I guess? This is way more pro, ahahhaa. xD.

Um, it's been a very long time. Since my mother stole my computer tower and has been using it, I haven't been on as much because she is usually on facebook doing Pet Society and/or Farm Town. She does these everyday for houuurrrsss, T_T. I don't understand. And my computer continues to go slower as more pictures are added to my collection, more music is downloaded and the computer isn't being restarted frequently by moi . Mum said I'm getting a new computer next week and stuff, but It'll probly be crap >_>. When - IF - I get it, i'll definitely blog more annnnnnnnnd probably watch more anime, do everything more. Facebooking too .

It's kind of wierd writing like this. It feels as if I'm writing a story. Maybe I should write one soon... WHERE AM I GOING TO INSERT THE QUOTES? AH. LAME. I don't know where to put the quotes on here. :/ I have an idea *Glowing light bulb gently floats above my head* I'll sometimes just put blogs full of quotes because I think that's probably one of the best things about this blog, other than the stories, that is. I'm just that lame and boring.

Um, this summer.. a lot has happened actually. I have a job now, Community Developement Council, it's called. It's different from any other job I can think of really. It was fun at the beginning - Bagging diapers, becoming friends with Ashley & Rachel, Helping with the Good Food Box, but then.. We started gardening. I hate gardening. After this, if anyone asks me to garden.. They are going to give me $15/ hour, or I'll refuse. I'm so pro at gardening now, it's scary.
Gerald is the guy we work under. Even though he volunteers, he's one of my boss's (the scarier one) husband. SOO, obviously I have to be a good girl. He calls himself the Master of the Universe. He always talks about his accident he has a few years ago, yknow? So.. unbelievable. Literally. It sounds fake. But I'm not going to argue. He says that he was so muscular and everything and huge for being five foot five. I can understand that, it happens. But then he talks about how Doctors say he shouldn't have lived.. but since he was so muscular and well built and stuff - he lived. Thats a bit overboard but.. okay. THEN the gaurdian angel thing comes in. He says that during his recovery he could actually see his gaurdian angel. Long blonde ish hair, white robe, etc. Everyone says that. After he said that, I just started nodding. blah. Ashley & Rachel are cool though. : D

So I havent really hung out with many people this summer - Johnny went to cadet camp for 6 weeks, and Meatloaf is working. Tina, I hung out with . : ) Um, Nicole or Alex .. nada. I hung out with Johnny & meatloaf though. We saw Julie & Julia Today. " This is as hard as a stiff cock. " ROFLCAKES. That's great, :) good movie.

And.. And Mattchew came down couple weeks ago on July 26th, a saturday. He stayed till tuesday night. I was so happy, I nearly cried. Seriously. I'm a creep, but yeah. And..and, I could hardly believe he was here. It was like a scene from a movie. It felt so ... right being with him. It was great. He dropped his bags at my house and we slowly walked to Wendy's to eat. I wanted a frosty,or was it a shake? I don't know but I wanted it even though I was full >_>. The cherry on top. I wanted it. But nooo, I didn't get it. He paid for like everything T.T ; Food, MOVIES. OH MY GOD THE MOVIES - We seen The Ugly Truth. It was HILARIOUS. The vibrating underwear was... GREAT AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, :). He stayed in a motel after the first night when he slept at my house. It was fun. It was a nice room. We steamed up AND flooded the bathroom, xD. I enjoyed that a lot. The bed was comfy too, we ordered pizza and pepsi and just talked for a long time. :) There was even an AIR CONDITIONER - OMG ;D. It was fun. On the last night though, He wanted to leave at Seven pm instead of Nine pm. But I was extremely selfish and asked that he stayed for dinner and stuff. So he stayed for dinner then went to Dairy Queen to get the Banana Split we usually share.. together. It was nice, really nice. But then we went back and his bus was there. I promised I'd try not to cry, I promised. But.. he didn't. It was hard to see him leave, but I smiled. I wanted to cry to badly but he began "tearing" and I kissed him and reassured him :). It's nice to know I mean something to the person I love. It's nice to know he'll cry in public because he's leaving. I do miss him but he'll be back in 3-4 weeks, so I shouldn't be complaining, because after that, he's all mine. : ) I'm greedy♥.

He promised to bring me to the fair too, which is on the third to the sixth of september.
And yes, I do consider myself lucky. :)

Oh, and I think you should know that I get influenced by things pretty easily. Not people, things. and since I saw Julie & Julia.. I want to learn how to cook . >_> I asked my mum if she had any cookbooks. I want to try a little bit. I know I'll give up after awhile, but whatever. I have nothing else to do . ;D