You used to lean on me like the only other choice was falling down .

Thought I'd use a stupid pic. haha .

I didn't write Thursday .
Oopsie .

Anyway , I was homeless last night. : D

With Shiloh.. And some other crazy flippin' people .
haha ,

I got these quotes from Shiloh .

Thought I'd say that .
I like them . : D

And she feels lost because

he's her star;

& The clouds are out tonight .

Kai , So.
The homeless thing .
It was fun.
I lived in a box.
Omigosh, I got Matthew over at 9:30pm.
Hahaa, He stayed with me. : D
How Rated R . >.>
We danced.
We were suppose to be homeless but the people that hosted it..
were selling coffee and stuff.
Are they STUPID ?
That is so effing lame .
Loud music. Shiloh's mommy brought pizza. ♥♥
And we had pop. chocolate. Our iPods.
There was a pretty british guy with amazing gloves on which I wore..
for, like, an hour .
He's pretty. Everyone thinks so . I don't remember his name.
He's really nice. Long lashes too .
Anyway ...

Those nights when you just can't
seem to fall asleep;
It's because you're awake in someone
else's dream .

I've been so depressed lately too .
I don't know what's going on .
It's just like last year .
Like, everytime someone tells me something good.
I question it .
WIIIIIEEEERD .
But, I can't help it I guess.
I'm just being stupid. Again.
Hahaa ,
I've been thinking about my sister, honestly .
Like, what she would look like if she had lived.
Or what she would have.. a husband already ?
A child ?
She was loved by everyone..
So.. if me and her switched..
She would be completely different, right ?
Better, maybe .

I'm pretty sure that my life is God's
own personal Jenga board & he's
trying to see how many pieces
he can take before I
Fall apart .


I'm Tired. And bored.
And.... COLD .

Lyrics :

She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears there's no difference between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And all the magazines tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys what they want
Trying to act so nonchalant
Afraid to see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection.

Beautiful Disaster by Jon McLaughlin

I'll be fine I swear; I'm just gone beyond repairr .

Alex Evans.

Sorry, Tina.
I have a fascination too.

Really .
Gawd; He's so pretty...
But I know people are also are pretty.
Maybe even more pretty.
But Alex is the most pretty.. famous person that is under the age of 20 .
How bout that ?
baha, :)
Wait.. He IS under 20, right ?
Isn't he like 16 or 17 or 18.. or.. :S
Ack . xD

Snow White, Cinderella.
All about wanting a guy.
Because saved by a guy.
Today it's Little Mermaid, Alladin,
Pocahontas.
All about getting a guy.
So, basically, we're screwed up
all because of Disney .

Me & Mum went on a sugar spree..
Kind of.
We went to A&P
And got shit loads of candy/ chocolate.
I got..Campino's, Hot lips, Reese's pieces. Jaw breakers, and BBQ Lays chips..
So basically I'm happy,
Mum didn't realise I put in the Campino's until we were at the counter.
She called me sneaky,
even though I was holding them out in the open
when I was picking out the chocolate I wanted .
Baha;; ♥

All those scars on her arms,
Don't worry.
She says they're little notes to
remind her how many times
you broke her heart .

So basically, I'm obessed over Mayday Parade.
Because of Shiloh .
And, Um. I'm obessed with Hello Kelly too .
Even though EVERYTIME I go to say there name;
I usually say ' Hello Kitty' by accident.
K, not everytime. But most of the time .

I don't get mad anymore; because
I expect the lowest from people .

You should see my bible .
It's fun.
Yellow and-- It's on my bulliton (how do you spell that ?) board.
With a picture of Taylor Lautner. Rawr .
LMAO , Woot . Twilight <3

She cuts herself .
Never too deep, never enough to die .
But enough to feel the pain .
enough to feel the scream inside .

I'm reading New Moon again--
OMG OMG OMG
Darren Shan, okay .
The series Cirque Du Freak .
Yeah-- It's a manga now.
THATS SO AMAZING.
I was freaking out, like, majorly.
I even ran downstairs and told my mum .
[ After I went to the bathroom. *grins* ]

I want to cry, I really do .
But I guess I just don't want to
give you the satisfaction of
knowing that you hurt me;
Once again.

I'm eating cake.
We bought that too .
We got back half hour ago .
It's so good.
Be jealous.

I think I am going insane .
I keep seeing the phone light up in the corner of my eye.
And it's not ringing .
I'm scared. >.> .

Gary and mum are in a fight.
I was scared when they came back from Grocery shopping.
She was SO crabby.
And .. Gary.
Ugh. GARY.
He was crabbier than usual .
Of course, I hid in my room.
Cause I'm grounded.
And am a loser who reads manga online for hours.
And hours .
And talks to Shiloh .
Randomly .
Tries to send her songs even though she keeps going offline.
And the song cancels.
Again.
Wow. hahha, I wrote a lot .



I'm so addicted to
All the things you do
When your going down on me
In between the sheets
Or the sound you make
With every breath you take
It's unlike anything
When you're loving me.

Oh girl lets take it slow
So as for you,
Well you know where to go
I want to take my love
And hate you til the end.

Addicted by Saving Abel .

How can I hate you when you buy me fℓowεrs ?

Cookiee .

It's thursday . Clearly .
Exams for me are finished .
I had my last one today ,
Science. BLAH .

I gave you a piece of paper with
" n ss!w !" written on it .
It didn't mean anything to you ,
Until you turned it upside down .

Matthew and I took lots of pictures.
So I'm happy.
The one up there..
Reminds of this Play I had to participate in.. in grade 8.
Only a small one in front of the class. Very small .
I was an old lady .
saying, " Would you like a cookiee ? "
Couldn't help but laugh. : )
Shiloh probably remembers .

Love is when
you can't pay attention in class
Cause you're forever writing
youre first name with his last .

This is fun .
Anyway .
I have 10 days off .
I'm bored .
Hopefully going to edit pictures.
OH, and go sleddinggggggg .

Love- a wild misunderstanding
although highly desirable malfaction
of the heart
which weakens the brain,
causes eyes to sparkle,
cheeks to flow
blood pressure to rise
And the lips to pucker .

Listening to music .
I need more music.

Oh, hahahaa.
Sexual blonde moments :
" There are sizes for condoms ? "
" Yeahhh..."
" Omg, I thought it was a ' One size fits all ' type thing. "
x3
" Why do people have flavoured condoms? It's not like anyone is going to suck on it ."
" Haven't you ever watched porn ? "
" Yeah, totally . I SO watch porn.. "
" Oh.. Well, they show you .. stuff. " etc.

Anyway;;
The song for today iss...

Now I'm heels over head
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound

I got a first class ticket to a night all alone
And a front row seat up right by the phone
Cause you're always on my mind
And I'm running out of time
I've got your hair on my pillow and your smell in my sheets
And it makes me think about you with the sand in your feet
Is it all you thought it'd be?
You mean everything to me

Heels Over Head by Boys Like Girls .
: D

He's her drug & She's addicted .

I've decided.
I'm going to do a post Every Sunday and.. Thursday .
Not includingg now .
This one doesn't count .
I just wanted to put a picture up .
Well not really .


Anyway ,
First Exam today . Woodshop .
It took me a half hour .
I finished first and I got a whole diagram right.
WHICH, btw, is amazing.
I have a math exam tomorrow at 12pm.
& My science one in the morning. at 8:20/8:30


I got some great quotes too ,
My favourite one right now ;


The Blame :
If you feel that I'm falling for someone new,
It's not because I love him,
It's because you weren't there to catch my fall.
The Answer :
It's because you never gave me the chance.
You haven't reached the bottom, yet
you already grab a branch .


Oh, and I was kind of thinking..
About writing another story, actually .
Vampires. The one I wrote a bit ago sucks balls .
So, I'm going to start a new one. Soon.
My Yaoi one isn't finished yet. *grins.*


Anyway , Wow.
I totaaaaallllllly got off topic, LMAO .
Anyway . This thursday . Yes .


[ 24 days till Valentine's day ;; ♥ ]



Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me


Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Remembering Sunday by All Time Low .

Silence is a girls loudest cryy ;

First post . Ever, basically .
I've seen so many of these, it's like " Whoa. "
bahaha.

I'm amused.
I can talk about whatever and people will see this and ask me, wtf ?
LMAO . I can't wait.

Kai, but seriously, I need new jeans. *cries*
I don't have many. I have to do laundry a lot.
I'm sad. seriously .
My face looks depressed.
I think . Well... HOPEFULLY .
Then it would EMPHASIZE the depression-ness.
Thats works.

Ahaha, I'm going to make SO many people stalk my blog.
Because I'm that boring .

I like using the bold thing and italics.
If you haven't noticed. Hahaha,
Anyway .
I plan on talking about bands/ artists, good songs, random shit, fashion, anime, poems and stories. BEAR WITH ME .

I'm ending this before I go totally hardcore. >.>

-->
Random chorus of the song I'm listening to :

I cant believe,
the troubles that you've caused
the pain is getting stronger,
like an open wound without the gauze
it's on my brain, its driving me insane
it's on my mind all of the time and if it left, I would be fine
All Because I'm Leaving you behind
I feel the pressure, It's coming down on me
It's Turning me, black and blue
you left me at the side of the road
SIDE OF THE ROAD
and now i've got no place to go
you brought the flood!

The flood by Escape the Fate .