You used to lean on me like the only other choice was falling down .

Thought I'd use a stupid pic. haha .

I didn't write Thursday .
Oopsie .

Anyway , I was homeless last night. : D

With Shiloh.. And some other crazy flippin' people .
haha ,

I got these quotes from Shiloh .

Thought I'd say that .
I like them . : D

And she feels lost because

he's her star;

& The clouds are out tonight .

Kai , So.
The homeless thing .
It was fun.
I lived in a box.
Omigosh, I got Matthew over at 9:30pm.
Hahaa, He stayed with me. : D
How Rated R . >.>
We danced.
We were suppose to be homeless but the people that hosted it..
were selling coffee and stuff.
Are they STUPID ?
That is so effing lame .
Loud music. Shiloh's mommy brought pizza. ♥♥
And we had pop. chocolate. Our iPods.
There was a pretty british guy with amazing gloves on which I wore..
for, like, an hour .
He's pretty. Everyone thinks so . I don't remember his name.
He's really nice. Long lashes too .
Anyway ...

Those nights when you just can't
seem to fall asleep;
It's because you're awake in someone
else's dream .

I've been so depressed lately too .
I don't know what's going on .
It's just like last year .
Like, everytime someone tells me something good.
I question it .
WIIIIIEEEERD .
But, I can't help it I guess.
I'm just being stupid. Again.
Hahaa ,
I've been thinking about my sister, honestly .
Like, what she would look like if she had lived.
Or what she would have.. a husband already ?
A child ?
She was loved by everyone..
So.. if me and her switched..
She would be completely different, right ?
Better, maybe .

I'm pretty sure that my life is God's
own personal Jenga board & he's
trying to see how many pieces
he can take before I
Fall apart .


I'm Tired. And bored.
And.... COLD .

Lyrics :

She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears there's no difference between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And all the magazines tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys what they want
Trying to act so nonchalant
Afraid to see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection.

Beautiful Disaster by Jon McLaughlin