Tuesday, June 2, 2009

'the worst thing is holding onto someone who doesn't wαnt to be held onto.


If you look closely at the picture.
On my right cheek .
There is a dark spot.
It's not a smudge on your screen ..
..It's my eyeliner that transferred off my hands. Dx
thought I'd let you knoww .

It's true, we don't know
what we've got
until it's gone,
but we don't know
what we've been missing until it arrives.

So I finished watching a CSI.
It ended at 8pm.
About an old lady who was locked in
her closet, alive.
She died of dehydration I think they said.
Then Grissom [ ♥ ] and the team connected
that case with another one where
a 16-year-old girl gets gang raped.
She gets murdered at the end .
Tragic really .
Made me ponder about things .
I'm not telling .
It's embarassing . >_<

Cracks in the concrete are just
little reminders that you'll fall apart
no matter how strong you are .

Oh. Matthew phoned me last night.
annd anndd. *blushes*
>_____<
Other than the fact he loves me : D ;
He told me to go up to Timmins.
for a week or two, depending on what
my mum would say .
I hope my mum says yes.
I really want to see him for more than a couple days.
I want him to save money for an apartment too .
It would be so great.
When he invited me, I got so happy -
I think my heart skipped a beat.
But I don't know what his mother thinks of me .
I was too depressed to put anything on my blog
so I didn't write anything but,
The day he was leaving..
I woke up at 7am to bake cookies.
Around 8:30 or so , my mum and I
left to go to the pet store and the dollar store
to hold the cookies in for his trip .
I baked DOZENS of peanut butter cookies.
Anyway,
At his house, we talked.
I cried. He comforted me. I cried more.
Because I'm lame. ahaa .
So when his mommy [ Marjory ]
And his aunt came .
I helped him put his stuff in their goldish van.
They took me our for dinner/lunch at Northway .
It was really awkward.
I was sooo nervous.
Because she has an accent. >_<
I'm used to french accents and some japanese accents.
That's about it .
Her's is Cree .
I had to concentrate really hard, but I just gave up
and look around the store.
His aunt didn't like the ice in the drink so she
used a spoon and put in it a coffee cup . xD
Then the ketchup, omg, the ketchup.
It's the class bottle that you let pour out like
salad dressing, not the squeezing bottle.
Ketchup poured all over her burger and
covered it.
Again, she used the spoon and put in the coffee cup .
Matthew just had to add to it with putting
colslaw as a topping on it. xD
Gross.
It was funny though.
So, she saw me crying on Mattchew's shoulder as
he was leaving. Embarassing.
so Now, I gotta see if she like thinks of me as wierd
or something before I feel okay bout going.
I'm at the uncomfortable stage right now .

Everyone has a weakness, but I have two.
Everything you say &&
everything you
do .

I think I forgot to talk bout my sleeping episode
too .
I sleep walk and talk ,etc.
when I was at Matthew's on Friday, I think,
I fell asleep .
Well I guess I was talking.
I was mumbling.
He told me he kept asking, " WHAT are you saying ?"
over again, frustrated.
and then in the midst of it all ,
I said in a clear voice,
" I don't even know what I'm saying. "
LMAO .
That's funny .
>.<

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