Flying is learning to throw yourself at the grounnd && missingg . : D

I like this picture.

It's great.

The guy isn't that pretty though. : /

thats a bit.. meh .

Um, I have a new favourite website.
it's great.
www.fmylife.com
I think I'm annoying Mattchew with it,
but hopefully he'll bare with it.
Until I don't like it anymore .
I've read 29 pages of Sex misfortunes.
Really funny.
I signed up for it, too . : D

There comes a time when you look in the mirror
& realise that what you see is
all that you will ever be .
And then you accept .
Or you kill yourself .
Or you stop looking in mirrors .

I don't really have anything to talk about.

So, yeah .

oh, Um.. Shiloh has been sending

me new songs.

So I got more Mayday parade and

bands I have never heard of .
But I like them .

If we threw our problems in a pile
and saw everyone else's,
we would quickly grab ours back .

So, Shiloh invited me to this thing
last night.
I just remembered when I was
talking about never hearing of
them.

She invited me to this cafe

downtown called

Organic Underground.
Bands play there. Not, like

stupid old bands or whatever..

I mean bands that are emo or punk

and stuff.
If you have a band, you can play there.

so Shiloh made me go because

Joshie's band [ Hero for the Weak]

was going to play .

But the whole, she was basically crying

because Joshie's girlfriend was there.

And he was basically snubbing her .

I told Shiloh, it was obvious that

it was going to happen. Because

Ashley [ Joshie's girlfriend ] knew

that Joshie likes Shiloh.

and Ashley is jealous.

Meh .

So Shiloh dragged me with her to take

a walk, so she can basically bawl her

eyes out and eat Dorito's, while I

attempt [ Not really . ] at cheering

her up .

Thennn .....

Shiloh & I had to go to the bathroom

and she said to meet her at the table,

but I couldn't GET to the table..
So I just figured I'd go for a walk .

I stood near the closed bus station for

awhile..
& then sat down in market square;

looking for someone to ask for a quarter.

It really pissed me off how we have to pay

50 cents for a phone call that would last,

like, 15 seconds.

Honestly.

Well, anyway .
I was crying the whole time.
Because I'm so stupid that if the tiniest

thing goes wrong. I cry.

I'm pathetic like that . Seriously.

I got 25 cents from a little oldish lady

and I phoned Mattchew.

I tried not to cry, so he wouldn't rush

over, but once I heard his voice..
it was really hard.

I had to put my hand over the mouthpiece,

where I spoke, to muffle some.

But he still heard it and he came.

Quick .

I keep apologising because I feel bad.

Like.. REALLY bad .

Of course, I knew that he would think

crazy thoughts. Like me being raped.

I didn't think of that .
I just wanted to see him right there

when I was depressed and..

and.. I don't know.
I was settling down till I saw him.

I started bawling again.

My make-up was shit.

I tried fixing it before he came;
But didn't work.

He had to fix it for me .

Then I went back to Shiloh and told her

I was going to get food to eat and that
I'll be back by 10.

Went to Mattchew's and had food.

We talked it over slowly and he cheered

me up .

I'm really happy that I was able to talk to him.

It made me really happy . : )
And even though I called him over for some-

thing stupid.

He was still there .

So, I'm glad.



I said it in past tense.
But I don't know how to say it in present tense.
It kinds.. got messed up near the end.
Forgive me, xD!
I love you, Mattchew♥
It rhyms.