Friday, May 29, 2009

I'd be lying if I said losing you was something I could handle.


My new favourite song right now is my by
Mayday Parade called, " Three Cheers For Five Years "
I've been playing it over and over. And over.
Annnd, oh.
My mommy and I kept fighting this week.
About my homework and stuff.
I yelled back, of course.
I called her up to my room to get things over with.
Another fight started up.
Nothing was solved . : /

Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may
never be replaced .

Currently yawning.
I'm tired .
In school today .. Our periods were shortened.
They were 50-55 minutes each .
10 minute break still .
I couldn't hand in two assignments in English;
One being my ISU
[ BUT, I asked for an exstension a few days ago. ]
And my creative assignment on which Tina didn't
help me with.
Not fun.
Religion = Re-test.
I probably did um, HORRIBLY .
Everyone in the class had to do a re-test.
No one knew anything.
We kept asking for next week but nooooo,
Mr.Mayer gave it to us anyway . : /
lame.
BUT, I finished the test early and went to the
library to finish my history letter that was due
next period. Mr. McCabe.
I'm amazing.
.. Then lunch I saw Mattchew. : D
Of course. >.<>'Cause all these years that
her lungs have been breathing,
she's used her heart for
everything but beating.

Since today .. or yesturday.. is/was Friday
and the 2nd last day till Mattchew leaves me..
My mommy let me stay out till 12am.
It was great .
We went to the store.
I found out he has a fetish for chocolate chips.
Ew.
And we ALSO found out.. that his dip he planned
on using for his Ruffle chips.. Was suppose to be
refridgerated after opening it the first time.
Which was funny .
" I'll have the shits after this."
He said. He'll have the shits if the dip was bad. xD
I didn't get it at first.
Oopsiee.

He reached for her hand,
" I don't want to lose you. "
His voice was almost a whisper.
She could feel the tears again,
& she fought them back.
" But you don't want to keep me, either, do you?"
To that, he had no response.


I'm going to make cookies in the morning. : D
For Mattchew on the way home.
Annnnnd I get to meet his mom .
!!!
He almost made me cry in Rexall.
it was horrible.
I started tearing up and when he went
to touch me, I shoved him away . Dx
Sad isn't it ?
BUT, it was because if he touched me
I would've started bawling.
He's leaving tomorrow/ today .
At 4 or 5pm.
Happy? no .
Depressed? Not yet.
Going to be? Do I REALLY need to answer that ? : /
Talking to myself. Sort of.
I'm amazing.
AND
When Mattchew walked me home.
It was raining.
Dark. Spooky. Creepy.
It was SO hard to say bye.
When I closed the door I started crying.
I went to go to bed but then my mum
offered me the computer.
I said I'd only check my email but I ended
up doing this.
I got on around 12:30am.
It' 1:48am now. I'm slow.
And challenged.
I need friends. LOL

Truth is, I gave my heart away a long
time ago, my whole heart,
and I never really got it back .
[ Sweet Home Alabama ]

Mattchew needs to pack .
I need to sleep .
Gotta get up at 6:30am
to bake cookies and get things ready
for him to leave.
Happy, Happy. -___-'

Oh, and Tia got fixed.
Hahaa.
That's what she gets for being a little shit.
>_>'

I'm forgetting something but
I don't have time now.
Fill it in later.
Going to bed. Dx

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